How To End Your Life...
(letter to my friend)
I write because I sense something strange within you lately. In the past, you bounced-off life's problems, emitting good vibrations with hope pumping through your veins.
So here I am, living vivid, with ambition fuelling my flame. Although, just a while ago I was utterly lost and spinning around in a hurricane of inner unhappiness. Yes, I was surrounded by good people, but oddly they became part of my ever decreasing spiral. "The fear" hijacked my mind and was playing ping pong with my thoughts.
My mind was totally out of control, like a wild stallion galloping around with me on its back! Too many thoughts, all contradicting, nonsensical, bucking to throw me off. Then a heinous little idea entered the drama...the only way to subdue this beast, would be to kill my mind.
Not the first time this obscene concept had directed itself into my conscious thinking - back when I was a fresh 21 years old. After living a toxic existence since the age of 13 - pandemonium got hold of me and forced me to consider if the life I was living was actually worth continuing. My flatmate returned to a note saying I'd locked myself in the bathroom taken LSD and am deciding whether to end my life? Probably not on his favourite notes to receive list!
Yet those beautifully crazy hours imprisoned with myself brought about the perfect solution -
The decision was easy, I was going to end my life. So I left behind my friends, girlfriend, changed my social activities,
home and job. In short, I stopped being the old me and then...simply rebooted
The next 25 years were full and truly satisfying, By any standards I led an extraordinarily good life.
Until a few years ago, when "the fear" returned to invade my mind once again. However I was much further along life's path, supposedly wiser, certainly older plus with the responsibilities of family, work, home, friends, all the standard stuff
I recalled, when people asked, "what should I do?" I'd always say something like "do what you feel is the right thing for you." So I took my own advice! Once again breaking my circle, although this time with a lot more care. Moving to another country and changing many aspects of my life.
Most importantly, I adjusted my perception of life and what it could be. The biggest revelation was discovering
I still had things I wanted to do. I rediscovered my ambition!
Life is rich in possibilities, the bummer is, to reach them you must kiss goodbye to some personal baggage.
Making changes regards the negative aspects and people around you is a fundamental condition of moving forward
Like me in the past, I sense you have "The Fear" and may be feeling a little trapped by your lifestyle.
It's not as big a problem as you may imagine. It is actually your own system telling you "its time to make some changes."
We each have one life (except religious folk and cats) it is incredibly foolish to waste it just because you're unhappy!
Your entire system is screaming out, offering you the opportunity to metamorphosis from caterpillar to butterfly.
Once you accept this extraordinary invitation, You will find the courage and strength needed to make your transition.
Be bold. If you don't decide your future - others will choose it for you
Every atom, every cell, and organ in your body changes during your lifetime. Not a single part of you remains static.
Your body and mind are evolving every single second. None of us remains the same, even if we wish too! Change is a necessary part of being human. Go ahead alter your perception and grasp your opportunity
It's a journey…
and the path is extremely muddy, so don't wear cute shoes, sturdy boots are essential. You are climbing your mountain,
it's going to be scary and sometimes painful, however, when you reach the summit, the view of yourself will astound you
I don't know if I'll be part of your new journey; hopefully we'll see each other further along the path
3000monks feel...adventures are ahead
spring 2017
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